Perhaps I care too much for this world to care back for me...

I dunno what I'm saying...neither do I know what to do with my life now...

Religiously, God still cares for me...But like every human, we wish for something tangible...something that can be felt...

I hate myself,school,work,money,future and myself even more...

I care for so many around me...and in particularly the most, Joyce...

I care too much for others that I hurt myself,hurt others and hurt myself...

Will I end up loving myself,loving others and loving myself if I started being selfish and cared solely for myself?

Why must the world be filled with contradictions,trials and tribulations?

Why must one go thru shit to grow and learn and become emotionally,mentally,physically stronger?

Is it true that we become stronger or are we growing more weary, more cautious about the route we take or are about to take?

I wish at this point that I'm no longer in this world...so that i truly can appreciate what i had...