Uncontrollable/Controllable

Sometimes, frustration gets the better of me and I just wanna lose control, and literally gorge myself to death with Ben&Jerry,chocolate,donuts etc etc

Sometimes, I wonder if tear ducts lose their functionality as age passes me by... I was pondering on how we used to be able to express our emotions so easily as a child, cry when we're downcast, laugh contagiously when in delight. Now, when I'm feeling dejected, I can't cry incontrollably but instead have to control my emotions to put up a deceptive smile.

Deception it shall be then.