The inner fire is the most important thing mankind possesses. ---- Edith Sodergran

went back to camp last night to settle all the stuff i've gotta do for today's commander's parade...took the wrong bus and ended up somewhere in tuas...damn scary and ulu...took a cab back to camp and reached around 1145pm...and typed out the minutes for the inter-religious leaders meeting....slept at 0230 and woke up at 0545...rush lotsa shit today basically...remember i was saying that i sense a depression sometime soon...well i suppose today and mayb the next few days will be it...today i was so close to breaking down and cry/shout/screw anyone near me...but i controlled and kept it to myself...imagine someone asking you to do this...then the next moment more and more work is thrown at you...then you gotta monitor a lot of other stuff...and still go for talks and briefings...and still gotta see the face of officers...and most of them who dont even cooperate and delaying you from getting things do...and you still gotta take work home although you onli slept for like 3 hours the day b4....and....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh wadeva lah.... i also dunno wat to say man....God please help me!!!Thank you!!! :....(